I am ok , I am fine

yup that is what I am...no ...no n..no...it is not that I am ok or I am fine...actually I am far from being ok or fine or good ....it is the attitude that I have ...which is ok or fine about everything...now if this is not sad...tell me what is...

and strangely it is about everything....things most precious after a point of time just loose their shine...and be it anything...and I mean anything...take for example .... the sudden anger in mumbai....things are just back to normal...I have even got a name for it...eh...26... 11....now I was so angry on 27 th, 28th , 29th, till about 7th or I think 15th dec was latest....ah... the best thing is I forgot about the delhi blast that happened a few months ago...again I was very angry...and the story just goes back and back

Why don't I do something...why can't I remain angry ...why don't I question more....why do I forget to demand for what is mine...why have I become like this....

Random ...ness

Well... I have too many things that interests me and then dis-interests me... need to scale down ...my thought process ugh....just missing....

I hate teenagers...especially the ones who have just come out of college.. they yap so much... man it is depressing ... they have opinion about everything...they like or dislike everything...that is so stupid...they have yet to learn about ignorance....ahhhhh


I like kids.....

I like to sleep...so much as much as I can...

Delhi 6

Missing presumed dead

Next week, the death toll in the post Godhra riot will rise from 952 to 1180, seven years are up and so all the missing persons will be declared dead... by Shobha Naryan in Hindustan Times.

This was the first lines that I read today as soon as I came in and promptly forgot...and I am ashamed... somewhere deep down a small voice told me to care and slowly after hours it got louder... and the pitch is slowly but steadily going up....

Somewhere while growing up I have forgotten about Humanity...I think I see too much of it getting bombed, knifed, gunned .... this I argue has killed my ability to get shocked.

I accept the dead and the dying as normally as I only can, I do not worry after a while... '

I have seen all .. I argue.... I am too small to help them.... I say.... how am I related .. I think... I have other things to worry about.. I feel .... I am not responsible....

Yes I do not think I will do anything... today or tomorrow... but I will.... somehow...I will