The headline fellows

No it is not gen y,x it is us.. specifically it is people who just post headlines without any checks to see if what they are posting is factual or not. Generally it is a hate, ridicule.. like a poster and the medium does not matter, facebook, twitter, whatsapp group.. all they are looking for is a dopamine hit, these are people who have jobs or run business are responsible people they post really shitty pieces of information. I have recently started confronting this and this is my take on how it works

Side note : Facebook, twitter, youtube has been designed to keep you engaged at all times, the more you post the more they know about you and will show feeds relative to what you are posting, essentially it is feeding your emotion. That is how the algorithms work, if you are right oriented you will see matter bashing left and how the right is the victim and vice versa,the tactic is same from both sides almost to the T, a lot of CTRL F is used in the text Anyways this is how it goes down, you post something stupid, and you get likes on your post you feel wanted, happy ..etc etc somebody instead points out that you are talking shit, now two things happen

•  You backoff (I will fuck with you later)
•  If you know the person and not sure if they know more than you but you resolve to get him/her with something in future - it is dopamine denied .. revenge .You will then start sending the most absurd of posters without any context
• You know the person and stop responding that particular comment, and all your "like minded" friends keep on congratulating .. Your mind is happy .. but you will get him/ her some day 
• You attack (how dare you come in between me and my dopamine) 
• You may know or not know the person and everybody of your "like minded" friend will pounce on him/her. You and your friends will troll and troll till you get your fill 
• You will ignore, not because he/she is wrong, it is because you know you are wrong and you have been caught you fight with your data and you fight with no data and you then fight.. and at the end you say.. fuck you ..and fuck off i know this.. and this is what it is.. you have no idea this is the parting shot.. you just wait and watch 

It is about who wins the argument, it is not about right or wrong .. it is see how smart I am.. and how I made you look small..

The problem especially in the circles that i am in which is predominantly Indian, people who comments on history of India have never ever read .. they hated history when in school and have not invested even now to learn. Civics is another subject which is so fucking undervalued in our school and colleges.

 Most of these guys are just looking for a headline

Prohibition stories

I have been following Joe Rogan for some time now in You tube, there is a series of sessions on this "War on Drugs" in US, and the more I learn the more i believe that it is really shitty, especially after a visit to Neatherlands where these things have been legalized. While the issue is not as bad in India as in USA, due to a more social acceptability of smoking Ganja / Cannabis, however we are turning and turning quite fast to this prohibition society which is quite scary. Especially in case of Punjab, and in the big cities it would make sense to have systems to help people, especially the poor and the Kids, check out the video on Kamlesh, one of the saddest videos i have seen

Technology, media today and me..

there are just too many of them, whatsapp is the leading light, took over from facebook, then twitter is for abusing and for the rich and famous and especially for Trump to disrupt the economies of the world, snapchat, telegram, instagram, people are forgetting to write and more importantly forgetting to speak to others. Then you have the bombardment of news channels and news which are more like thoughts of the anchors are becoming the news I never was able to understand twitter, just did not understand, actually had the same problem with faceboook, i started with Orkut and took time to get in facebook, i had a good time there, but off late have this nagging feeling that it is not helping me, in the last few years i have met less friends / family than previous years have spoken less with them, have definitely typed more, but have not connected really connected with them.We used to have this conference calls before the FB and the whatsapp days, it has stopped completely So I came out of facebook, called a few guys, but whatsapp is more convenient, good thing is that i dont have to look at people fighting each other calling names that was good, but still no calls, i dont go often enough to even meet friends here in Pune, have i reached my age, have i become too old to change, can i come out of my so called comfort inert zone i did write this, good... :)

Names

have been thinking about these names Dablu - Primarily a eastern India name, in use often with Babloo - two brothers Bablu and Dablu Pinku and the female version of Pinki Question I get in my mind is whether these names exist prior to the English language coming to the Indian shores or is it the English alphabet

"W"

and the color Pink

Childhood - death or murder

Just have got this feeling for some time now, did Manoj's sister die of smoke / suffocation or was it murder. A place near Ranchi, around 1980 or 81, i was in class 2 i think, the news came in that Manoj's elder or eldest sister (Dont quite remember) has died of asphyxiation due to smoke. It was winter, it got mighty cold in the winters. people used to have a chullah (it is a coal and wood clay stove) in the room, once the initial smoke has been fanned out the coal burns nicely and makes the room warmer. I think she was in class 12 or something, it was also a phase when young girls used to fall in love quickly and elope with very less thought with a very questionable characters, and this is the backdrop when we got to know that she had died. i dont know why this is still in my head, but there is just too many things that I cannot piece together, however tight you close them windows and the doors or those ventilators there is always some cracks, and these were old houses with large windows and ventilators, also the rooms were not that big that you cannot reach in 3 or 4 steps may be 5 at the most, and then there was this girl, not a frail old thing but a strong girl. How did she die, i just cant shake it off

Life

Living with my fears with a smile

Re-initiating ...

Getting back here ..after a long time..things that have changed..not much..except..have moved from Delhi to Kolkata to Mumbai and now in Chennai.....yup... was found in all Metros...sometime back.. :) Oh Yeah... i visited Angkorvat...something I always wanted to.. big achievement.. Visited a places in and around Chennai Visited -- sir..yes sir...Firang Land... USA and Europe...oh yes.absolutely sure that I will now live in India...

Projects

Now a few interesting things that I would want to do in my life...and from now on the goal is to earn enough to get the ideas flowingand eventually execute...

1. Travelling the silk route
2. Go to Angel falls
3. Jump from the airplane in excess of 15000 ft.
4. Make the video for Kandisa
5. Make a documentary on my Village
6. Make a film on the sweets of Calcutta

Most importantly get a job in Kolkata

Search

Since coming to B'lore the eyes are looking expectantly at faces and buildings and trying to recognize somebody or something that i would have interacted with 11 years ago, and like everything else almost everything has changed in someway or the other.

Another problem that I realize now is that I do not have any reference point..no photos nothing...amazing that you have stayed, worked with people for 2 years and not take a single photograph...i guess nobody realized that this will be required ..nobody thought that we will not be in touch... :( ....also..I don't know how they will look like now...and the problem is that the people I know then will not expect me to show up and hence the chances are slimmer...

Still ...I am hopefull, I will hear my name shouted out or propbably a small tap in the shoulder somewhere..

Dentists

For the last 3 weeks I am going to the dentist for a root canal treatment...two things came to mind when the dentist was drilling...1...what kind of apartment is he making and ...2 will he pay me rent..finally though nothing of that sort happened...however with your mouth open with various instruments chipping away at the hardened tobacco scraps an overwhelming feeling of being violated comes to mind

Money it is...

Well...yeah a lot of hardwork is required for you to earn big...become rich.... e.t.c... e.t.c.....but the point is money is necessarry ..the more I think the more i believe in it...let's debate the case...Superherors...why are they and how is it possible for them to be so..well one ..they have powers which a normal homeosapien will not have ..some can fly and are industrictable like the superman( he is not from this planet...so let's not count him)...or like the green lantern..who has a ring that can actually beat the Superman himself...some like the spiderman are blessed with powers of the spiders...radiactive ones at that or for that matter the members of fantastic four or the X men, some woman too..like wonderwoman ...that leaves only the phantom,the batman and Mandrake..i do not consider Bahadur as superhero, also Hanuman is not a Man..so lets meet Phantom first...and is he rich...big time...he actually has a cave of his own with a army of pigmys at his disposal..and the riches of the African Jungles...with a private beach at Keela wei with its golden sands..phew...no wonder here...now let's move to Mandrake..now this dude is loaded for a magician...i mean this guy lives in Xanadau..with Titanium gates with speakers on them ..to reach the main house you have to go through 7 security levels and then you have Lothar..the strongest man and Hojo the 10 degree black belt ..you tell me ..is he loaded ..he has to be..last but not least..and also my favourite..Batman... Bruce wayne..owner of Wayne industries..this guy is loaded like 5 sheiks in one .. no wonder he is what he is...
Point is You need to be either have some super power or have enough money to pull off stunts like they do... sigh.. Money in itself is a Superpower..that I don't have ..thus I will take the lift or stairs and will drive my beaten esteem and work boring shifts and not kill any criminals or bust their camps...jump from house to house............

Found

Guys invented the spark..the best line that I have heard in a long--long time..i have used the spark thingy for such a long time..never actually understanding it...GAWDDDD...am I an idiot...ha ha ha ha ha

Who am I

Traveller...couch potato...loner...lonesome...lonely...dreamer...????????????

I can now breast feed a baby

HMMMMMM

yeah

oo yeah...oh boy..oh boy...shabash.....zawab nahi tumhara...kya bat hai...lajavab...sahi hai bidu..tumsa koi nahi...kaise karte ho tum..tum bhagwan ho..

Well all the above compliments are for myself...WHY...i just remembered the blog password...he he he he he

One week-- from Sunday to Sunday...first counted as one among the equals ..that was a heavy boost to the ego..and the weather in Hyd was awesome...also met two awesome people..one was the auto driver "prince" and the other was the 72 years's young Mr. Sherry Vakil...

But the big one was Meeting friends again in NAGPUR...man that was wonderfull, again smoking and drinking on the roof..chatting away the whole night and then meeting the others and laughing all day...some moments...just can't be priced ever...

I am happy...have found the thread of life again...will be going back to what I am ...feels nice...really nice...

Life sucks..work sucks..but then who cares...it is a very small part of your life...enjoy the rest..

Week

good..that is what i will say about this week so far....i have clicked a few snaps.. Sunday early morning.... met my ex flatmate after a long time..smoked, ate Momo's and drank beer while it was raining.. getting wet in the process.. saw inception - Brilliant movie ...smoked, talked, home...sleep...Monday went by okay..so did tuesday.. another girl in the pipeline ... no response..great..no more calling...hooray.. have to find a way to get the second one out of the way...but that is tomorrow.. so far things are looking okay...not promising..just okay..anyway next week will be in hydrabad ..so that is going to be fun...

Social Incompetence

Have been mentoring one guy for some time in my role, wherein the work related mentoring is going on I am getting mentored albeit unconsciously on social etiquette's, and just started to understand what I am missing and will continue to miss with my current location, work and lifestyle.

Having been with friends at work is probably a situation most desired however it also has it's side effects, work moves friends apart...and suddenly you are lost for that uncomplicated, unrestricted and taken for granted company.

Now things have changed...

not that I am averse to meeting people..it is more like what do I do in front of them ..sit down, touch feet...the protocols are just to messy for me to remember...not that I have this problem everywhere, however meeting new people seems to be a problem.

New friends are difficult...

Bob Dylan's Song...Things have changed comes to mind

ME to me

All that matters is lost on me

Why Bother

White hair...2 on the beard....1 on the moustache, and 4 on top of the right ear....this bothers me...as in the eternal youth thingy seems like not happening...ok...so learnt my lesson...

Friends going through disappointments and hard times...though these that will go away in few years...time heals.... but it does bother me

I am losing interest ....like reading, meeting up with people...movies, trekking, travelling...knowing....instead becoming a lot cynical....bothers me a lot

Somehow not being passionate about anything is th worst possible thing....not wanting things to happen to me...this bothers me the most....

Need to do something so drastic..or need something to jolt me big.....KAZZAT

Ever Wonder

Can we call the Pandavas the first artificially inseminated babies?

What was the surname for people in Ramyana and Mahabharatha ?

Why all the characters in Ramayana are called with a ji..e.g Ram Ji, Laxman Ji, Hanuman ji..Raja Dasrath..e.t.c wherein Mahabharata is on first name basis like Arjun, Bhishm e.t.c

How many Sons did Draupdi have ?